my dear juliet

the weather today is lovely. it's raining and gray but lovely. i want to curl up and and watch a movie. but the weather is also affecting my mood in a negative way. i feel gloomy, lonely. i am alone, thats why. i've been alone for a long time. it's my standards i'm sure... they're set to high. how can i expect anything if i'm asking for so much. well, is it too much? honesty, loyalty, trust... maybe it's the fact that i want someone edge.thats probably it. not many people now days are edge. it's sad but true. this means i have an awfully small selection of people, an unfortunately i don't know too many of them. no, out of that exclusive group, i'm still looking for trust and all that, that narrows it down even more. so laura's just going to have to find amour somewhere else... which means waiting. unless something amazing happens and an egde, honest loyal, trustworthy, gorgeous kid just comes waltzing out of nowhere and is actually interested in me. psh, right, whatever.
in other [not so gloomy] news, school is going along smoothly and the first week flew by, unfortunately the weekend did too. so i'm happy about the people i have classes with for the most part, i don't have any truly agonizing classes that i have to force myself through, like gym. it, alright. :)
i'm going to have a shower now, calm down and watch some movies i haven't seen in a while.

je t'aime
Laura xx