bring on the new year

wow, this year has gone by pretty fast. it's weird to look back on it all and think about everything that has happened. how many times i've been disappointed and/or let down. how many new people i've met, how many new rushes i've had. i have to think about where i was tis time last year and where and WHO i am now... then i can really appreciate the changes i've made in myself. now for the past few years, i haven't really thought of any good new year's resolutions but this year i really know what i want to change about myself and how i'm going to do it. my resolution is to think about myself more often, and do thing in MY interest instead of giving everyone all my strength and effort only to receive little or none in return. i know how i'm going to do this, i'm going to refuse to take shit over and over again from people who claim to care about me... *cough* *cough* and the next time something happens, i'll stop it, i'll break off that friendship that clearly isn't important to them. i mean, if you really cared about someone then you think that you would try to avoid anything that would upset that person, hurt that person or damage your friendship with that person, but apparently not. :/ so this coming year, i will look out for myself and keep my enemies close, but my FRIENDS closer. yes, my f r i e n d s . so, bring on the new year.

happy new year
Laura xx

back to front row stage left again

i found myself in the new chiodos video. "the undertakers thirst for revenge is unquenchable (the final battle)" i'm only in it for about 2.5917684 seconds but when you're a fan of a band and you're in their music video, every millisecond counts ;) so you can see my Little bleached blonde head right up in front of the stage, but its in the lower left corner of the screen. yay for Pontiac chiodos video shoots on top of buildings on a school day... for FREE! :) so, in other news, it's Christmas eve-eve, "yay" :/ but my dad IS in fact coming HERE to america in only five days, and i know he is going to end up arguing with my mother but we'll survive.. hopefully, ugh. yup, so go and watch the new chiodos video, www.chiodos.net or iamcraigowens.com or myspace.com/chiodos or even on youtube... yay!

enjoy your holiday and stay warm and safe.
Laura xx

P.S WEIRD dreams lately :S

up in the studio, me and my drank

good afternoon, just got back from a buffet brunch at the university. yum, food. i'm listnening to music with stefan and yes... i listen to some rap music *gasp* haha, only some though, and none of that stuff that just talks about women as if they were objects. it warmed up today which made me happy :D
i was just thinking, who the hell reads this anyways? i don't really understand why i still write every now and then, i think it is really for me, so i can feel like i have my two cents in when someone or something bugs me. im not very confrontaional so this blog will be here for me when i want to bitch someone out but decide not to. i tried that out once, i wrote someone a letter, a two page, single spaced letter bitching them out. ops, i guess i was just a little harsh. whatever. nothing major going on in my life right now, our new computer shoud be getting here any time now, i've been waiting forever!!!!! omg, i want it so badly! well, im going to chill out now and do some homework and whatnot.

peace :D
Lauraxx

across the ocean, hear her scream

another day, another dime... is that how it goes? well, for me it's more like, another day, another something terribly annoying or hurtful. people tend to breeze over my well being, it irritates me to great extends. whatever -_- it's not going to magically become better if i just sit here, is it? i'm not in the writting mood, it being december and all. i wish there would be a snow-day sometime this week, i could use the extra sleep. well, i really don't hae anything to write so, just count down the days till christmas *shudders* but my dad is coming on the 28th :D
go listen to the grand coda :) c'est trés bien...
&& this is all still so new to me,
our eyes have lost their colour,
&& now i'm trying, i'm trying to keep my balance,
but there is nothing, theres nothing to keep me steady..
craigery micheal owens has a beautiful voice and an awesome talent for song writing.

music is life,
Laura xx